The Good, The Bad, and The Awkward

I will admit the title is cliché but it seems to sum up this short post. This experience made me feel excellent and exasperated at the same time. I was in my relentlessly boring Speech class about to listen to a group presentation. There is this cute girl, with one of the most amazing smiles I have ever seen, in the group that's in the process of preparing. She is just sitting at the front looking at her soon-to-be-audience. My eyes are drawn to her and not in a perverted way. So it happens that our eyes meet. Quick look away! Off course I listen to my first thought but instead of not looking back I look again. Eyes connect over the short distance. "Break the awkward,” my mind screams and I speedily look away but awkwardness isn't avoided. I've learned my lesson. No more looking. Just one more look to test it. The same result and the same reaction come from both of us. So then I struggle not to look for the rest of the hour and a fourth. We'll that half-minute of awkwardness including an estimated 7 seconds of eye contact made-slash-broke my day. I loved the beautiful seconds but hated that I didn't do anything about it. I still can't bring myself to say anything to her. I fear it may be to late.